*~suicide~*

Love is suicide.But yet people still fall in love.Playing on the other hand is like playing with fire. But as much as i love the thought of suicide.I looveee playing with fire :) But there comes a time in everybody's life when they become sadistic and choose suicide over just having fun getting burnt.I should know cause i'm one of them.This feeling is beyond compare to other things.It makes you think about certain situations in life.And if they are really truely worth it.When you look into the person's eyes.What do you see?Is there something special there?Do i really love that person?You'll just know and you'll realise that love isn't a fantasy.It's not something you can create or have it your way when you imagine?It's something more and something real.And when it slips away just as you have it within your grasp..you'd feel your whole world crashing.And you can't imagine it away because it's not a fantasy.To find and have someone who not only loves you but is identical to the perfect mate you'd have always wanted.You'll want to hold the person forever.But is it really not enough to live life now and be happy?I know what i want.But how do you know what the other person is thinking?Must everything really be based on trust?Look into the eyes than think about it.I quit playing because i wanted to be serious.And i found my perfect guy.It was really a suicidal decision relying on giving up life and focus on one particular thing.But in the end i believe it'd be worth it.I'm up to the point where i don't know what i'm writing because i'm too busy watching tv.Sorry :P Anyway the point is its ok to take a chance to fall in love just make sure you know it's love and not a one sided thing.I know i've always made it a one sided thing cause i never really bothered about the people i dated and stuff but after playing all the time you'll just want to have someone you can just stick with.And it'll be hard to find cause life is fucked up and shit always happens.Life is never fair and you should make the most of it cause you never know when you'll breathe your last breath...