*~years~*

unexplainable,confusing at sound
ignoring the facts, darkness surround
inexcusable, denying the truth
features as white as a werewolf's tooth
at the stroke of 12, all light shell fade
facing emotions, death is fate
sneaking in2 crack, hiding with fear
shutting your eyes and wishing you weren't here
over and over, night after night
reliving a fear, only darkness in sight
i tried to escape, i tried to get out
but you awoke a fear and force me in doubt
once day approached, light beginning to shine
my mind was all restless, but i made no whine
acting like it didn't bother, living life each day
deep down only i shell know, the price my sins has to pay
deep in the silence, the depths of my soul
gone and lonely and with a miserable hole
things never making sense, the mind nor the heart
if i were to tell you my story, i wouldn't know where to start
but to try to share and give you an experience that real
you wouldn't last a single feeling how i feel
you'd explode in tears and you start to go insane
you'd be sent to lab to examine your brain
you think its so easy being a girl like me
think again who you really rather be
i can show you a whole new level to the word fear
i can make nightmares come true with loved ones so dear
i can destroy your life and not feel a thing
i may look human but inside i'm far from a being
you think you know what terror really is
you won't know till you've experience this
let me show you hell if you really dare
come take a chance if being me is what you care
if i am your fear and imagine what's worse
imagine living your life forever being cursed
imagine loosing thing so dear within a reach of your hand
imagine not finding love, just a grain of sand
imagine one moment you feel you can finally be happy
imagine a second after that learning not to be sappy
why even bother be someone your not
so what about looks, style and being so hot
why do you care so much, why does it matter
do you think having a life like mine would make it any better
suck it up, shut up and just live your life
you know the kinda girl i am, id stab you with a knife
or push you against the wall and hold a knife to your neck
or even throw you in a flaming oven and watch you scream and bake
i'd even laugh at your pain and laugh when you cry
i'd laugh cause your just a pitiful you, i'd laugh when you die
after long gone years of living a curse
i've manage to survive and control the burst
dealing with it and facing it again
it's grown to me, i'm immune to the pain
its a part of me so i no longer hide
face me face to face or even side to side
not longer scared or screaming in my head
no longer crying and hiding in bed
no longer suspicious of footsteps around
no longer weary of all strange weird sound
1st experince its killer to see
you'll be fonder of passing years, for experienced like me