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hey darlings....bak again.. erm wer was i.. k suppose tell urll another of my story tingy rite..k i will..hang on.. 1st of all it wasn rite of me 2 tell urll 2 play ard..hehe..its really ur choice..i mean its all up 2 u n ur decision in da end..wateva choice u make its urs 4 da kpin..i can only tell u tings 4m my xperience but still da final decision is urs..don jus tk my word 4 it i mean ppl do tinks differently..4 my case im jus screwd n i mean yea i don deserve happy endins..aft everyting ive done yea u should agree..hehe but hey i still live my life evn thou im fuckd up so really u needa decide 4 urself wat u wanna do n how u wanna react..4 me i don c y should get jealous coz more or less life is jus plain fuckd up n its only gonna get more fuckd up..hehe k anyw here we go..story tym :D once again dis has nothin 2 do wif my current love life so jus shut it.. hehe

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lets name dis guy "Sam" :P hehe his sister will be known as "Sally".clear so far?hehe im
pickin really pathatic n simple names so urll can cope k? hehe
k anyw..1st tym i saw Sam..k dis was a simple 1..i jus found him cute n adorable..
i was so calld "bestfrens" wif Sally..
turns out tat Sam is actually Sally's brother..
yupz..seems lyk some pathatic old common story bout how a girl falls 4 her bestfren's brother? well fuck u..not entirely true..
yea i found him cute..but it was jus puppy love..
i knew it..n so did my frenz..
bsides..he wasn actually my type so watd u xpect..
anyw..i kept goin 2 Sally's house n kept oogalling Sam..
so yea i lykd him.. but nothin happend..
eventually Sally n i driftd.. alot chances happend within da yr..
after a yr or so i saw Sally n Sam, they saw me 2..
i waved 2 them but Sally approchd me n had tat reallllyyy cheeky smile on her face..
i didn noe y but i jus askd her how she was..
i didn say a word bout her brother..
thou da brother was lkin at me 4m afar i jus ignord him..
den she tld me tat she tld her brother tat i had dis major crush on him last yr..
i was lyk...waaat?!?!?! hehehe oh ok.. den she was lyk nooo...but guess wat he said..
i was tinkin lyk..come on he isn even interestd in girls..so i askd her wat?
well..it turnd out tat i was da 1st girl he eva lykd..
he didn tink tat id lyk a guy lyk him so he didn tk a chance..
he "screamd" at his sister wen she tld him tat i lyk him b4..
hehe i was shockd as hell.. but i always did find him cute n adorable..evn aft i saw him again tat yr..
well eva since tat day.. his sister askd me 2 hang out wif her..so i was lyk yea k wth..i mean haven hangd out since 4eva so yea..
i met her at my house..n GUESS WAT?!?! yea no surprise..she brought her brother..
i tot it was only gonna b all girls so i was lyk indecent n stuff..
n wen i saw da brother i was lyk "SALLY U ASS!!!!U DIDNT TELL ME HE WAS COMIN!!!!!" she laughd lyk fuck..hehe but den again so did i.. so i couldn b botherd so i jus actd lyk u noe wth..jus go wif it kinda ting..
da brother was really shy 2 evn lk at me.. i was lyk sittin on Sally lap n kept tokin 2 da other guys n girls.. hehe was actually fun :)
den Sally was lyk askin Sam 2 tok 2 me.. she was lyk "Oi Sam..Tok la..U wantd 2 c her.now she here u so shy..tok la" hehehe i was jus smilin at him..
so i jus crackd up a convo wif him n askd him bout himself..
hehe he was so shy he kepy smilin n givin da shortest ans eva :P
everyday after skul n stuff we'd all meet up at my house area n jus hang out..
yuppzz we had no bloodly life :P but den Sam n i got closer..
it was sooo cute i swear..hehehe dis is hw our 1st n only kiss happend :P
i was sittin infront of him.. he was shy..he didn noe wat 2 do..
we wer tokin den silence..
WEEEIIRRRDDDD.... :P
hehehe den we wer holdin hands..
im not sure if he was scared or shy :P but was seriously adorable :P
hehehe i lk at him den i askd him 2 kiss me.. den he was lyk..so shy but was lyk ok..
da moment our lips lockd i slid my tounge in n he got scared..
he moved bak.. i was laughin but he was 2.. he was lyk sorry :P
hehe i was lyk..its ok n smiled at him.. den da sister came n put a thumbs up.. i was lyk WTH?!?! hehehe den on da fone he was lyk tellin me he was scared..
den i tld him tat it was ok i didn mind n stuff..
i jus made a joke bout it n in da end he was ok :P hehehe cute :P
but he tld his fren tat he relly loves me..
his fren tld his sister..
his sister was lyk.."I NOE"
but wen da sister tld me bout Sam tellin his fren tellin her..i was lyk "REALLY?!"
hehehe hey im not tat dense ok..jus most of da tym at da rong tym 4 certain tings tat could b most obvious but im not botherd 2 actually notice :P hehe
anyw..he askd me b his gf.. i was lyk..errr k..
i mean as muchd as i lykd him..i didn love love him..
but i was lyk u noe wateva so i accpetd :P im sucha slut...shut up only i can say tat..heheh :P
k so anyw..da moment we startd tings off.things chanced n we lost contact..
jus lyk tat.. he couldn mt me..i w8d at his house..he couldn mt so i w8d at his stupid house 4 him aft skul.. he didn wanna c me..
i was confusd. so i let it go.. hehe..but i was curious..i mean yea k i "hurt" him..but i wantd 2 noe how wen i didn noe i ordy hurt him..its not fair..i wantd 2 noe i hurt him so i could enjoy da fact i hurt him..or at least...k yea urll get my point..hehe anyw..i didn noe..
but he lost contact wif me so i couldn b botherd..
tings changd..n i got 2gther wif another guy..
hehe shut up :P if u really noe me tat well den ud noe tat i was ordy 2gther wif tat guy even wen i was wif Sam :P
ANYW!!!! i wasn actually serious wif him..jus made ppl tink i was.. :P
den i found out tat Sam had b sentencd a yr at jh..
i was lyk...WAAATTTTTT?!?!? i mean yea i didn care..but a part of me kinda did care..
den wen i lkd bak at everyting n all da tyms we wer 2gether..
he was actually really romantic 2 me..
it kinda made me feel bad abit..
i mean only vday he wasn allowd go out..but he got his frend 2 send me dis bear tat said "I LOVE YOU" on da heart..i was lyk.. awwww...
den wen i couldn get out of my house..he stayd da whole day at da carpark at my house..
n he'd stay ter jus wavin 2 me at my window :)
i rote a note n sent it down 2 him..i tld him its so cute n tat i love him..
den wen i lkd out da window he said i love u 2.. i was lyk...aww..
i tld him go home but he stayd.. wen i met him i askd him y..
he said he'd rather stay jus seein me once in a while den go home n not get a qick chance 2 c me at all.. hmm...i doono but of all tyms i had wif him..
tat was da moment tat ill always rmb da most..
i guess it made me realise tat i acutally love him more den i tot..
anyw bak 2 him n jh.. he still didn wanna tok 2 me..
n i found out tat he had nothin much 2 do at jh so i made his a letter 4 everyday of da weekday 4 him 2 read..
i put dates on them so tat he'd noe wich letter 2 open :)
i didn rite 4 weekends coz he get 2 go home n stuff..
but we still didn meet...
my life was quite busy n pack..
n he oso still didn wanna c me..
but den worse came 2 da worse..
i told him i noe he lyks another girl n im more den happy 4 him..
but i did love him n i was sorry 4 everything..
4 hrtin him n all tat..
n if really not tokin 2 me n not seein me is wat makes him happy den ill leave n not leave a trace of me in his life eva again..in other words..it'd b lyk id nv xistd..
den after a wk or so his fren passd me a letter..
it was 4m him.. he said..tank u 4 all da letters tat kept him company..he realise tat i nv 4gotten him n he admits tat he nv did 4get me..he tried but he couldn..n tat he still loves me..ter was no other girl..
i was lyk thinkin...omg could i love him any more?
but den i was tinkin..i don wanna hurt him again..
n noein me i could hurt him again wifout noein so i beta not start anything again..
so we kept on goin as frenz..
he still got hurt..
esply wen he found out tat i was wif his fren..
but actually i didn give a rats ass bout his fren..i jus wantd revenge wif da fren..
he tot i really cared..so he jus left...SUX :P
hehe but den he came bak.. n now...now wer frenz..
he wana tk tings slow..
i don get it but hey wer frenz..n whoeva he lyks im fine wif it..
n its fun bein frenz wif him..but im glad tat it doesn work out 4 both of us..coz i couldn c both of us wif a future..NO OFFENCE IF UR DA SAM CHARACTER :P hehe
anyw..moral of da story..JUST BCOZ U LYK OR LOVE SOMEONE..DOESN MEAN U HAVE 2 B WIF THEM..
i noe tat kinda sux..but its beta tat way.. :)

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well tats bout me n Sam..hmmm...he really was a sweet guy...i was actually closer 2 him den da sister hehhe :P i tink da sister got jealous :P but still..she was a great fren :) now she has a bf...AWSOME!!!! :D hehehe last long n b nice ok!!! no more pranks :P hehehe ok mayb abit :P but still...hehehe mayb someday well all get 2gther n do our pranks again :P eheehe

anyw... da ting is..ur stead has a mind of tier own..u cant control them..n if u can actually control them..u shouldn..lk..i love my bf..but wateva he does n stuff..i won stop him..tat doesn mean id love him any less..evn if it'ssmthin tat girls would normally get hurt ovr..i'd still love him all da same..see how much of a sap i m :P hehe but i noe wat u girls r lyk..urll scold da fuck n cry bout how ur guy hirt u..well here's an advise..SUCK IT UP!!!yea k urll r hurt coz da guy u love hurt u n u wouldn do smthin lyk tat 2 him if he was in ur shoes..well den stop tinkin tat way n do smthin..im not sayin get revenge..tats da more fun way but NOO..:P hehe don do da same as wat he did 2 u..coz its a bloodly realationship not a competition bout who can hurt who da worst..hehe althou would b fun 2 watch :P BUT NOO DON RESORT 2 TAT!!! :P jus let it go...i noe..urll r lyk..."WAT?!?!?WTH IF HE HURTS ME Y SHOULD I LET IT GO?!?! HELL NO!!!" well yea!!! im tellin u!! LET IT GO!!! yea u love him..n he hurt u..so?!?! ur jus gonna b a wuss n cry ur panzy ass bout it?! GET A LIFE!!! LET IT GO!!!! y make urself miserable? yea u can still feel hurt n stuff but try ignore it n jus continue n move on in ur relationship..in tym he'll b sorry..but let him tk his tym..
if its wif ur gf on da other hand its abit more different.. k if ur gf cheats on u..don really let it go but oso don bring up da topic..tok tings out wif her calmly..but listen 2 wat she has 2 say...girls r such saps..u can easily make them feel guilty..but tats smthin u shouldn do..coz it CAN ruin da relationship...most girls tend 2 hold grudges..if u shot at her bout it den its only gonna make her rmb it n either feel bad or make her point out ur every mistake..wateva da case it'd change dis in da relationship 4 da worse..so don b a hard egoistic ass n do tat unless u wanna hurt her n slowly break up wif her by makin her miserable :P heheh shit i tink da girls r gonna slap me 4 tat :P BUT ANYW...guys...get in touch wif ur sensative side BUT NOT TOOOOOOOOOO SENSATIVE!!!!!!!or ill b da 1 slapin u!!! :P hehehe jus tk tym listen 2 her..or beta yet act lyk ur listenin..u don really have 2 if u don wanna but act lyk it but make sure if she ask u smthin u ans it CORRECTLY!!!! if not she'd b all lyk "ahh ur not even listenin 2 me...blah blah blah" n tat'd tk lyk another 3 hrs or so..now do u really wan tat happenin?! or would u rather jus make out n stuff...DEN LISTEN!!!! :P hehehe sheesh... i tink im gonna get bumpd in da head by da gils 4 tat :P hehehe ahh crap :P see how much trouble n pain u guys cost me!!!! grrrrr!!! :P hehehe jk :P but overall..rmb...da FINAL decision is ur choice.. :)
ill continue lyk l8r or smthin k..muwah love urll lots n lots n lots muwah muwah muwah!!! :P

cherry
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