Miss my sweetheart alot <3
Hmmmm sry kinda lost my mood abit but yea give me a sec 2 perk up k.erm well i donno whats going on.meeting alot guys recently.1 by 1 keeps coming up.i mean not personally coming up 2 me but just pop outa no wer either in my msn or on my fone.anyw im not really bothered.hmmmm.well after i posted the just now nothing much really happened.just practially bored as hell.ahhhh okok wait wait let me just cheer up abit k.hang on.
okok so well...ahhhh its not working im sry k.seriously.i donno if da medication is makin me like dis or wat but im just feeling weird.like really i just lik more blur den usually.im tryin snap outa it k?hehe ok ill start somehting erm...wat was i suppose 2 continue? hehehe crap.oh yea my best friend.tat sad story.
well i had dis best friend who meant the world to me.he was more den a fren.more den a brother.more den a best fren.he was everything to me.b4 i met my guy he was always da most special n only special guy in my life.my ex all got jealous about him but i didn care.nobody ouldve replaced him.thats wat i tot.but nobody did replace him till recently.we had so much fun 2gether.we could tok about everything or anything under da sun.it was amazing.ppl all tot tat he was my boifrend but at tat tym it was complicated.i had a guy he had a girl.but us being bestfrends we made everybody around us jealous n fall head over heals 4 us.it was a game 2 us but it was fun.bad.but fun.hmmmm...da sad part is...we fell 4 eachother.we wer sooo in love.and at tat tym it seemed tat nothin could split our frenship.we wer happy just exchangin smiles.den his girlfrend got jealous.she wanted him 2 spend less tym wif me.i could see he really liked her alot.i tot it wouldnt make us loose our strong frenship though.so i told him its ok.ill always be here 4 him.we slowly drifted.den his girlfrend still didnt get enough.she wanted me outa his life.i tot no way.never.den wen he said.mayb we wen as far as we could go wif our frenship.i like dis girl but i cant be around you.i asked him y he told me coz hes fell 4 me and he doesn want 2 be unfaithful to her.i cried for nights.it felt horrible.but i kept quite coz i don want 2 ruin his life.so i told him he can avoid me leave me do wateva he wans but no matter wat ill always be here if he eva has nobody 2 tok 2.he told me no.its over.hes sorry.and ever since tat day.during tat tym.nothing hurt me more den tat.even wen my guy broke up wif me tat tym i didnt care.i told him i don care if u leave it doesn matter 2 me.da fact he couldn understand me he couldn be ter 4 me n be himself and kept showing me off to hi friends.i knew i didnt love him.but when i felt troubled and i was hurt and i felt like i couldve just died.i so badly wanted my bestfrien by my side.to just share wif him my stories and problems.to share my pain hear my complains.2 noe he was just a fone call away.i couldve just called n pressed da button.but i didnt.i didnt coz he was 2 special 2 me i wanted him b happy.even though i heard he wasnt as happy as he used to be i didnt do anything.why?!?!i donno.mayb a part of me oso didnt want 2 get involve coz i loved him bak?i really dont know y.but all i knew was tat he would always b in my memories.he knew wen i was sad even wen he didn call me yet.it was werid but he knew how i felt wifout seeing or hearing.we wer tat close it like we got just sense that something was rong.when i had that feelin in me it suxed coz i knew somthing wanst rite but i couldnt call him.hmmm den when i saw him i didnt look.i looked down.i tried hide myself away 4m him.im not sure if he saw me but even if he did what could he do?his girlfriend was ter.and 2 think tat girl was actually my friend.she wasnt my good friend or best friend.just a normal friend.but still.it was a real heartbreaker.and everytym i tink bout it i just keep thinking.why.....everything that happened.everything that was real all suddenly just turned in2 memories.should i do somehting about it?!its too late.when he heard bout my accident he was really worried.he came down 2 see me.even then i could feel something was rong.i looked in2 his eyes.looked as if he was gonna cry.he was waiting 4 me grab his hand.but i didnt.not coz his girlfriend was ter but coz i love my boifreind and hes da only guys hand ill hold.i looked away 4m him.den his head when down.dne i turned and told him.im fine.ill be out soon.don worry bout me.u noe me da most compared 2 any1.ill always pull though.and ill always complete tings 2 da end.he smiled.i could see he was still hurt i all i did was use words 2 comfort him.hmmmm he really wanted me 2 hold his hand.he didnt care if da girlfriend was ter.den less den 5 mins da girlfriend wanted 2 leave.he was damn upset but he left.he kept turning bak but all i did was smile and wave.i was weak.but just remembering that a guy who i shared everything wif suddenly became like that made me sad.but when my guy msged me.that cheered me up.really its an incredible story in my life.ter more bout it.but i tink i rote alot ordy so mayb ill continue this 2moro.besides....
my baby when for a party just now.after the party he called me told me it suxed so he left.heheh damn cute.and hes on the way home now and going to call me later.which is kinda soon so yea i better go now.i love you darling.muwah!only you managed 2 mend heart in places i didnt know it was torn.ill always love you!
Hmmmm sry kinda lost my mood abit but yea give me a sec 2 perk up k.erm well i donno whats going on.meeting alot guys recently.1 by 1 keeps coming up.i mean not personally coming up 2 me but just pop outa no wer either in my msn or on my fone.anyw im not really bothered.hmmmm.well after i posted the just now nothing much really happened.just practially bored as hell.ahhhh okok wait wait let me just cheer up abit k.hang on.
okok so well...ahhhh its not working im sry k.seriously.i donno if da medication is makin me like dis or wat but im just feeling weird.like really i just lik more blur den usually.im tryin snap outa it k?hehe ok ill start somehting erm...wat was i suppose 2 continue? hehehe crap.oh yea my best friend.tat sad story.
well i had dis best friend who meant the world to me.he was more den a fren.more den a brother.more den a best fren.he was everything to me.b4 i met my guy he was always da most special n only special guy in my life.my ex all got jealous about him but i didn care.nobody ouldve replaced him.thats wat i tot.but nobody did replace him till recently.we had so much fun 2gether.we could tok about everything or anything under da sun.it was amazing.ppl all tot tat he was my boifrend but at tat tym it was complicated.i had a guy he had a girl.but us being bestfrends we made everybody around us jealous n fall head over heals 4 us.it was a game 2 us but it was fun.bad.but fun.hmmmm...da sad part is...we fell 4 eachother.we wer sooo in love.and at tat tym it seemed tat nothin could split our frenship.we wer happy just exchangin smiles.den his girlfrend got jealous.she wanted him 2 spend less tym wif me.i could see he really liked her alot.i tot it wouldnt make us loose our strong frenship though.so i told him its ok.ill always be here 4 him.we slowly drifted.den his girlfrend still didnt get enough.she wanted me outa his life.i tot no way.never.den wen he said.mayb we wen as far as we could go wif our frenship.i like dis girl but i cant be around you.i asked him y he told me coz hes fell 4 me and he doesn want 2 be unfaithful to her.i cried for nights.it felt horrible.but i kept quite coz i don want 2 ruin his life.so i told him he can avoid me leave me do wateva he wans but no matter wat ill always be here if he eva has nobody 2 tok 2.he told me no.its over.hes sorry.and ever since tat day.during tat tym.nothing hurt me more den tat.even wen my guy broke up wif me tat tym i didnt care.i told him i don care if u leave it doesn matter 2 me.da fact he couldn understand me he couldn be ter 4 me n be himself and kept showing me off to hi friends.i knew i didnt love him.but when i felt troubled and i was hurt and i felt like i couldve just died.i so badly wanted my bestfrien by my side.to just share wif him my stories and problems.to share my pain hear my complains.2 noe he was just a fone call away.i couldve just called n pressed da button.but i didnt.i didnt coz he was 2 special 2 me i wanted him b happy.even though i heard he wasnt as happy as he used to be i didnt do anything.why?!?!i donno.mayb a part of me oso didnt want 2 get involve coz i loved him bak?i really dont know y.but all i knew was tat he would always b in my memories.he knew wen i was sad even wen he didn call me yet.it was werid but he knew how i felt wifout seeing or hearing.we wer tat close it like we got just sense that something was rong.when i had that feelin in me it suxed coz i knew somthing wanst rite but i couldnt call him.hmmm den when i saw him i didnt look.i looked down.i tried hide myself away 4m him.im not sure if he saw me but even if he did what could he do?his girlfriend was ter.and 2 think tat girl was actually my friend.she wasnt my good friend or best friend.just a normal friend.but still.it was a real heartbreaker.and everytym i tink bout it i just keep thinking.why.....everything that happened.everything that was real all suddenly just turned in2 memories.should i do somehting about it?!its too late.when he heard bout my accident he was really worried.he came down 2 see me.even then i could feel something was rong.i looked in2 his eyes.looked as if he was gonna cry.he was waiting 4 me grab his hand.but i didnt.not coz his girlfriend was ter but coz i love my boifreind and hes da only guys hand ill hold.i looked away 4m him.den his head when down.dne i turned and told him.im fine.ill be out soon.don worry bout me.u noe me da most compared 2 any1.ill always pull though.and ill always complete tings 2 da end.he smiled.i could see he was still hurt i all i did was use words 2 comfort him.hmmmm he really wanted me 2 hold his hand.he didnt care if da girlfriend was ter.den less den 5 mins da girlfriend wanted 2 leave.he was damn upset but he left.he kept turning bak but all i did was smile and wave.i was weak.but just remembering that a guy who i shared everything wif suddenly became like that made me sad.but when my guy msged me.that cheered me up.really its an incredible story in my life.ter more bout it.but i tink i rote alot ordy so mayb ill continue this 2moro.besides....
my baby when for a party just now.after the party he called me told me it suxed so he left.heheh damn cute.and hes on the way home now and going to call me later.which is kinda soon so yea i better go now.i love you darling.muwah!only you managed 2 mend heart in places i didnt know it was torn.ill always love you!
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